Friday, November 16, 2007

Someone 2ts bout my feelings

"There might be some unmet need or issue stemming from the past that you never addressed. We tend to blame factors in our life as a problem and ultimately we put tremendous expectations on our loved one to make us happy, when it is an issue with ourselves. At times like this it can progressively get worse if the issue is not addressed and people we care about can get hurt in this period of self exploration."

I might agree w/ some people around.

C yah... more advices needed!

Am feeling sad and lost

I feel like looking at my life from the outside. I have a good life though was tough one. I was really blessed having my family although we're not rich but we have enough. My childhood wasn't appealing but i was happy. I finished my university degree w/ my own effort and i didn't regret it at all. Met my hubby & built my family of my own. We're together for so long now. Kids are grown up. Financially doing fine, as well as hubby.

And find it a nice balance between being a mom and working outside the home. I enjoy my job. So, . . why do I have this constant feeling like my life is miserable, missing something, its as though there is this void that needs to be filled. I
couldn't sleep, was very restless, and felt angry when I really had nothing to be angry about.

´been evaluated for depression & don't have to be desperately sad or suicidal to be considered clinically depressed, and treatments can make a difference. hmmmm...Maybe I'm just restless with my routines, eh? Sounds like a mid-life crisis, as my close friends called it.

Some told me " Normal. You have focused on many areas, but your marriage (MAYBE) has taken a back seat to some of your other "duties" and is now showing signs of neglect. You are a mom, you enjoy your job, but be honest, did those things take away from your marriage and your husband? It is good to have a life in balance, but maybe now is the time to change that balance and really work at the marriage - make it a priority. We suspect you didn't ever get to the bottom of the "rocks" that you hit before, just learned ways to cope with them or steer around them. Go back and start looking at those rocks again."

Guess, i try to seat and think what's wrong w/ me really? Will tell you later what's the outcome.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

cont, who I am?

This the map of the place where i came from

Can Long Distance Relationships Really Work?

Distance cannot, and will not hurt a bond between two people that is based on mutual respect, trust, commitment, and love.

Love & relationships make your life special, and that ones built on love & understanding are always worth preserving, regardless of the miles that may separate two people.

Commuter marriages, online dating, bicoastal romance, long distance love on the Internet...

Fact is that million of couples worldwide are coping with long distance relationships & the number still increasing!

Yummy Phillipine delicatees RICE CAKE

Here's one of our delicious BIKO ( a glutonous rice) recipe were one of my reader ask for.

Enjoy the experiment and Good Luck! Ask me more for more palatable filipinos dishes.

Traditional biko in the Philippines consists of malagkit (glutinous) rice, coconut milk, sugar, and usually mashed cooked ube (purple yam). Whenever cooking the biko is suggested you could always hear the collective sighs of cooks nearby. For it is quite hard to do with the constant mixing and stirring involved to prevent the bottom from scorching until the malagkit is thoroughly cooked. It was a major undertaking each time biko is cooked. However, you can pre-cooks the malagkit to cut down the cooking time drastically and to have a more even consistency of the malagkit. Great idea, I thought and promptly forgot about it for years until I started making this.

In our gatherings among friends in Stockholm, we would always watch out for one's biko. It is almost always sold out at the end of the party and people would include it in their take home bags everytime. I love the treacly-molasses like taste with just enough sweetness blended in. Therefore mashed ube is out and muscovado sugar is in. I must stress that you should use the latter to achieve that scrumptious taste. If not available, use grated panucha or if absolutely desperate use dark brown sugar.

Biko Macapuno

6 rice cooker cups malagkit (glutinous rice)
5 rice cooker cups water
3 x 400gm cans coconut milk
500 gm muscovado sugar
1 x 340gm/12oz bottle of sweetened macapuno (mutant coconut)

  1. Half-cook 6 cups of malagkit in a rice cooker using only 5 cups of water. As soon as the rice cooker switches from 'Cook' to 'Keep Warm' unplug it to prevent the malagkit from further cooking.
  2. Pre-heat oven to 375F/190C/Gas Mark 5.
  3. In a wok or big frying pan, boil the coconut milk. Add the muscovado sugar, stir to dissolve and bring to boil. Add in the sweetened macapuno (including the syrup). Bring to boil again and lower heat. Simmer until thick - about 5-10 minutes.
  4. Add all the half-cooked malagkit to the wok and stir to mix well. Do this until the malagkit is fully cooked (but not mushy and too soft) and the sauce has thickened and covers/clings to the malagkit grains well - about 10 minutes.
  5. Transfer to a baking dish; pat level. Put in the oven for about 5 minutes or just enough to dry out the top a little. Cut into squares and serve warm or cold.

[Optional] Although in my opinion this does not need any more garnishings, you may add the traditional topping for biko - the latik.
*To make latik: Boil a can or two of coconut milk. Lower heat and simmer until the coconut renders fat and sediment sticks to the bottom of the pan. Once the oil renders and separates from the sediment you may stir it from time to time to keep it from burning. When the sediment becomes dark brown, remove from heat, drain the oil and scrape off the sediment. This sediment is now your "latik". Put about 1/4 - 1/2 tsp mound of the latik on top of each of the biko squares. (The coconut oil can be used for other dishes or as a natural body and hair moisturiser - but that's a whole different topic).

Variation: Add slices of sweetened langka (jackfruit) to the sauce together with the macapuno. This will make the biko more aromatic.

Note: A rice cooker cup is equivalent to about 2/3 cups.

Little laughter makes our lives longer

> > A woman was helping her husband set up his computer, and at the
> > appropriate point in the process, told him that he would now
> > Need to enter a password..Something he will use to log on.
> >
> > The husband was in a rather amorous mood and figured he would try
> > For the shock effect to bring this to his wife's attention. So,
> > When the computer asked him to enter his password, he made it
> > Plainly obvious to his wife that he was keying in...
> > P...
> > E...
> > N..
> > I...
> > S...
> > His wife fell off her chair laughing when the computer replied:
> >
> >