Am still awake??? can't sleep!

Am wide awake...& i have time to shout OUT to the world again, this early morning...
Soon, i go creep in under my warm dona. I wanted a cozy night tonight but as long my teenage daughter is out for a hang out party at her dance friends, am not calm! I feel that am drowning of sorrows and worries. Is this what my mum felt too?
Good night everybody! will laydown and listen my heartbeats this i fall asleep or can I?

TO MY TL

I know I'll always feel close to you
even when we're far apart
there's so much love that binds us together
so many memories of good times
And long talks shared and a very special understanding
that's really rare.

I'm glad that we're so close in heart
and I'm glad too
that neither time nor distance will ever change
the very special bond we share!

HAPPY NEW YEAR W/ LOTS OF TRUE LOVE

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GOOD SATURDAY MORNING

The time is 00.007 a very early morning of the 29th december 2007. Am still awake! Just finish the household chores after my chums left.

I like my cutlery are in place when i wake up in the morning. But before i go to snooze off, I just want to say the world! GOOD MORNING & HOPE EVERYBODY CHILL OUT FOR THE WEEK-END---

SEE Yah!

FriendS came for dinner

Today, my friends we're at my place to have chitchat & have some pinoy foods. We gathered here tonight as one of my girl & her daughter we're leaving on sunday bound to Mla.
What a luck! Arrive Mla. on the 31st of December? Hmmm...a timing to celebrate the New Year in the Philippines with their whole family around them. Jealous man ko no?

Anyway, Rosalina, Choy, Day, Jenny, Tess, Lalaine,Vivian, Isabel & the lil lady Michelle hopefully enjoyed in my humble crib.

Dinner consist of: Sinigang, Palabok & Tiger shrimps w/ green & red capsicum for main course.

Welcome drink: Red orange juice, Nectar & orange juice free of choice if they want to mix a lil vodka.

Dessert: Fruit cocktail in skimmilk, choco rolls, choice of special finnish chocolates, dades & some healthy dried fruits dipped into light choco.

Just so simple but palatable tucker, though!

CHEERS!!!

NEW YEAR FINal COUNTDOWN

I guess all of us were waiting to the final countdown to the NEW YEAR 2008!
Today, Dec. 27, 2007, it's 4 days, 4 hours 47 minutes and 45 seconds, to the new year, a time I'm writing this issue.
I was thinking who/what's the country who'll celebrate the new year first. I was really pretty sure that it is Fiji, Port Vila or Vanuatu Island who will be the first country who will first welcome yr 2008, but i was mistaken. Christmas Island??? where the ???? is that island? Well, this is somewhere downunder eh? They celebrate the NY at 10.00 am European time. The 2nd is an island in NZ, then NZ itself, 4th is Fiji & 5th is Australia who celebrate at 13 hrs.
Philippines celebrate at 16.00 hrs our time!!!

Pls. press this link: "timeanddate"

I hope the world celebrates PEACE on earth not just in word but indeed!

AM A 6C lady!!!

Ha ha...kuno lang oi!!!

WISHING YOU ALL A PEACEFUL & BOUNTIFUL NEW YEAR

EXHAUSTED!

Yeah! Christmas Eve was over. All gifts were opened and all cooking's & baking's were over too.

What a relief that all this things are over. I was a bit of a lazy lady (host) this year as i undergo a chemical facial treatment that i don't really feel doing extra work this christmas.

Though this treatment isn't that complicated but i feel & look horrible. I didn't regret a bit doing this treatment during this season. Hopefully, on New Year's eve, i look normal.

It was soooo funny that my grandson, wondered how his "lola" look! He's been asking what was in my face, that it seems so plasty §:-)

TAKE A LOOK AT ME!!!

I WANT TO BE REMEMBERED
AS THE WOMAN WHO SMILES
EVENTHOUGH HER HEART IS
BROKEN AND THE ONE WHO CAN ALWAYS
BRIGHTEN UP YOUR DAYS EVEN IF SHE
COULDN'T BRIGHTEN HER OWN...

MAAYONG PASKO SA TANAN!

Sa ka kakulang og oras, wala jud ka panahon aning giingon nga blog.
Anyway, am just round the corner having my family gathered together and it's such a nice moments that kids were home. Although Christmas in Sweden isn't that we are keen what use to do in the Philippines, we adjusted and modified the Christmas here. Family who prays & gather stays together.
Just simple was my Christmas Eve then I went to bed w/ a sweet smile in my face.
Thanks Lord for having a such nice kids and giving us the good life and good health.
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL

2 ALL PEOPLE OUT THERE...

I wish PEACE, TRANQUILITY & good HEALTH to ALL this coming 2008.

Best wishes,

PRESS THE LINK BELOW!!

D'Nics

LIFE & FRIENDS 2ts 4 2d

I'm a simple person that appreciates even a little things i get.

Sweet words, a nice smile, a touch on my cheek makes my perfect day.

I'm maybe so stubborn but i have the softest heart on earth.

A simple, humble and not much hush in life, that's the simple Langging, i am.

My friends said am a lovable person, grateful & that's true....and HEY! am very ROMANTIC too! sus! paka-pinan pa jud baya?

THis nice thought words is for all my friends outhere...REMEMBER, every words are really true, indeed. So, send to your friends too? di pa huli no?

HAVE A NICE WEEK-END...a day to go & Jesus is born in Bethlehem.

VINTERSOLSTÅNDET

Vintersolståndet? Am not sure the right word in English but I will try to explain in my own words, though.

This year’s vintersolståndet (shortest day ) is on the 22^nd of December – it means that it’s the SUN (sol) shortest declination i.e. that the sun stands the lowest in the northern horizon or at the northern half of the equator. It dislocates scarcely 6 hours onwards every normal year & 18 hours backwards every leap year- & it falls every 4 years. 2008 is a leap year.

It means that we have one day more on February, that'll be 29th!!!

About 2 weeks later, the earth be laying so close to the sun.

Well, the northern part of the equator can feel this happens whilst in south, we're not keen of this coz we only have 2 seasons.

So , for us whatever may feel across our path? We appreciate it. More naturally and for us? More simple.

TALKING SEX TO MY TEENAGE DAUGHTER!!!

I’m having this delicate topic due to the reason that my young daughter is growing to be a young lady. She’s going to turn sweet 16 on April. Everybody knows that this age is complicated, lots of experimenting unbelievable & stupid things.

One day, she came to me and confessed that very moment that she have a boyfriend. My hearts beats so fast. WORRIED?

I start to planned what to say and what to do therefore I share some of my thoughts. This might help my blog readers who are parents and have daughters.

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As my daughter develops into a young adult, she may start asking questions that I didn’t dare asking my mother in my teen days It’s isn’t easy having a daughter specially nowadays. Before my daughter misinformed by her teenage friends, she needs to be given an accurate information about sex from me. Do I dare to give her information what she needs?

A little bit confused and embarrassed.mum. Anyway, my relation to my daughter is good. It's natural to feel embarrassed at first. I’d been working through my biggest fear. My mom never talked to me about this.

Both me and my daughter have an open book. I used to tell her all the examples I been through like in my days…blah…blah” but hey! Those were the days. I realized that the more you’re keeping our children, the more they get rebels. The most important thing when you talk about sex is that you don't say that this is anything other than healthy and normal, we need to explain that this is something that has to be agreed in a relationship after they’ve grown up and there's love and commitment and an understanding that they have to be responsible with their bodies.

Mothers should be primarily responsible for this topic, I may presume and dads can be available for moral support, but WE moms should do the heavy lifting.

A Daring Dream of a Dreamer!

You may get a lot of negative
feedback from others,
and so much happens in life
to block the road you wish to travel.
But you must dream anyway
and cherish your dreams
as they come from your soul
and are the blueprint
of who you are.
What's more, they represent
the direction you should take on earth.

Let your heart set your goals
and remain dedicated to them.

The 3rd advent Sunday

I was just soooo lazy the whole morning.

Lizah wasn't at home the whole w/end & KJ move to his own now. Me & Lars was at home alone and we're both lazy. We both get UP from bed exactly 11am.

I opened the blinds and saw so gray outside. The 16th of December? Awww... i almost forget that this is winter time. Unfortunately, no snow falls, no thick downjackets & no snowshoes. My feelings is mix. Fall or winter? Crazy huh? Well, no snow? it's more an easy life but as we're living in Sweden this is unusual season.

As i always learnt from my dad & family, this was always the right words they said "be satisfied whatever may come across your path"! That simple words waken me up. I went to the kitchen and fix the traditional swedish Christmas porridge.

Bot was satisfied our special breakfast and i lit the third candle for this advent.

IDENTIFY FILIPINO MEN

One day in fall, a lad came across my path, an aussie lad asked about pinoy men? Hala! was shocked coz i don't know what to tell her how the real pinoy men mentality are? In my previous blogsite (w/c am on the way to close) i wrote this topic and get some good answers.

CG na? basa naman oh? Give some ideas how the real pinoy men acts towards their opposite sex? TY to J. Santillion for sharing this pix

From my chum!!!
Dating Filipino man, who is in his 40, he have never been married before.
He is never open to me about his feelings or emotions. I don't know much about Filipino culture or traditions; we meet here in Australia. What is traditional Filipino man? What their expectations are? Is it any girls around who is married or committed to Filipino man? There are a lot of postings about Filipino woman, but nothing about man? Please help!

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OO nga ano? Pinays are more scripted nga? Y kaya? & more exploited than any other asian countries...
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- a letter from one of our friend who gave her comment, goes like this...(pakatok pod)

** filipino men? I'll sum it up in short words. A traditional man is generally a sweet lover.

*** he is, but what about other part of the life? any ideas?

I FOUND THIS COMMENTS AREN'T ENCHANTING EH?

*** 'm not a Filipino man - I'm a Filipino stud ! Filipinos in general have a Western mentality. We don't really identify with other Asian cultures as we still have the American colonial mentality. Actually there's lots of Americans where I work right now. I always had difficulty humoring Aussies, and laughing at their own jokes. But Americans and I seem to mutually appreicate each other's humor. Not to mention that my best friend is American. In short - Filipino mentality is almost similar to Americans. Full Stop.

*** You'll soon find out, wontcha. Generally speaking, traditional Filipino men are regarded as "playboys" regardless of how they look like.

I GUESS I MORE AGREE W/ MY STUD FWEEN!
exampleessays/filipino_culture

Your the candle of my HEART

I don`t want you to suffer with me...
Don`t want you to share the sadness which it inside me...
Don`t want you to build a castles within an illusions...
Don`t want to make you down..
Because love is not just a word to say..
LOVE is a moral duty...
LOVE is obligation between two hearts...
through a souls in front of God...
which never be apart...
and no one can separate between them...

I want to feel and touch this sweet love with you...
I want to feel within this love...
This love which can light a feelings...
and to nullify a mind... to make us feel amazement within it...
This love which can burn from inside...
This love which can take a mind away...
That love which we always dream about...
which make you melt in front of your lover...
and make you choose your lover from among the all...

Don`t think that i do not wish that love...
believe me that i want it...and dream always to get it...
A wide desert inside me, which can hear its yelling...
and a large dark deserted hall, which a wind slam its doors...
while there a small far candle which needs whom can take care about...
To make it a strong fire to give more lights...
to give me a warm inside me...
and to give me a safety feelings...
To make me feel as i am a little kid in a fathers` lap...
who looks to this life through a trust, hope and a love...
This love which i need and looking for...
Do you want to be the candle of my life...?

Now its between your hands...
and you can choose the right...
The right for you and for me..
But hope to be candle which i always wanted you to be.

Sta. Lucia, Dec. 13

Glögg is a swedish spiced-wine punch containing boiled fruit and brandy/aquavit. Always served hot and sometimes misspelled glog or glug to English speaking countries and also ofeten served w/out alcohol. Hurray!!! Good for me!!!

This is the tradition saffron bun. Lucia Day will be a perfect day. The cute Lucia miniature is a picture of a co-blogger that i found so fantastic. Hope i find this and own myself so, i can decorate my crib next year.

Yesterday, i was a lil busy assisting my daughter Lizah in her Lucia Day.

Hmmmm...curious lang no? Am born devoted catholic but since i can remember, i never heard about Lucia Day. Well, i know that we have Sta. Lucia, a saint.

I was really amazed the first year i came in Sweden. That was awhile ago. In Europe, specially in Sweden, celebrate the Sta. Lucia Day.

Lucia's day symbolically opens the Christmas celebrations in Scandinavia bringing hope and light during the darkest months of the year

- Who is Sta. Lucia? was a saint because of her kindness and her love. She was an Italian Christian who lived in Sicily in the 4th century. Some people believe she once visited Sweden. December 13th is also her feast day.

The way she became a saint was that a man who loved her and Lucia didn't like him, Lucia's mother asked her to marry the man but she refused so the man heard about this and he said he would burn her. But Lucia prayed to God to have the power to survive the fire. Because of her kindness to others her wish was granted. The man tried to burn her but she had the power to withstand fire so the man got a sword and stuck it into Lucia's throat. Still Lucia survived for three more hours speaking beautiful words.

- How we celebrate? Schools, daycares & every municipalities around Sweden designate (in voting) a Sta. Lucia that will be crown on Dec. 13, a young woman, dressed in a white gown, and wearing a red sash and a crown of lingonberry twigs and blazing candles, would go from one farm to the next carrying a torch to light her way, bringing baked goods, stopping to visit at each house and returning home by break of day. Every village had its own Lucia. The custom is thought to have begun in some of the richer farming districts of Sweden and still persists although the crowns are now electric lights.

Below is the short myth why Scandinavians celebrate this very special day.

"Lucia symbolizes light and growth for human and beast as she emerges out of the darkness. She is said to have been beheaded by the sword during the persecutions of Diocletian at Catania in Sicily. Her body was later brought to Constantinople and finally to Venice, where she is now resting in the church of Santa Lucia. Because her name means "light" she very early became the great patron saint for the "light of the body"--the eyes. Many of the ancient light and fire customs of the Yuletide became associated with her day. Thus we find "Lucy candles" lighted in the homes and "Lucy fires" burned in the outdoors. Before the Reformation Saint Lucy's Day was one of unusual celebration and festivity because, for the people of Sweden and Norway, she was the great "light saint" who turned the tides of their long winter and brought the light of the day to renewed victory.

Before the calendar reform, her original feast day (the day of her martyrdom) happened to fall on the shortest day of the year. The winter solstice was December 13 by the Julian calendar rather than December 21, which it became with the change to the Gregorian calendar in the 1300s, linking it with the far older Yule and Winter festivals of pre-Christian times. Lucy's lore survived the Reformation and calendar reform, which brought the solstice to December 23.

Another Scandianavian custom was for children, on the eve of December 13, to write the word "Lussi" on doors, fences, and walls. In ancient times the purpose of this practice was to announce to the demons of winter that their reign was broken on Saint Lucy's Day, that the sun would return again and the days become longer. "Lucy fires" used to be burned in many parts of northern Europe on December 13. Into the bonfires people would throw incense, and while the flames rose, trumpets and flutes were playing to celebrate the changing of the suns's course."

From Weiser, The Holyday Book

My simple Life

I recall every now and then, the place where i grew up. It's a place of happiness and sadness. Sometimes, i think it's only a dream. I live in a sort of quite little barangay Takepan, located at the Pikit area in North Cotabato, Mindanao. Panicupan river or a brook w/c flowed past at the back of our house that we kids, learnt how to swim, wash our clothes & fishing was one of the enjoying place to be. In those days, we farm kids could have caught different kinds of fishes, sweet water shrimps & shells in the stream. I was so afraid to catch them, compare to my childhood friends ´cause i hate earthworms and even the shrimps that they might come out of the water and crawl over me and bite off my fingers.

The deplorable happened when the war between muslim rebels and the military struck this area. I still remember that since my young thoughts, that this war had begun. Anyhow, people who we're born & grew up in Pikit always comes back whenever they have a time.

I left my hometown w/ a broken heart. Or can i say, i left my broken heart in Pikit? Lol*** Hearthrobes! First love never dies though that love already left in this world forever, still my heart beats for him... ngeeeee! in love pala akew??? They said, poverty, i say money wasn't enough but we had everything. Therefore i saw that Life was so simple, then.

Guess, this is the start of my journey! So, guys, hang on...I will relate more next ish! or else this can be boring!!! C yah!

Just a short quote 4 2d

Is anybody satisfied with who they really are?

You could be the moon

And still be jealous of the stars

You gotta' learn to swim

If you can't walk upon the sea

So I'm learning to live

And learning to forgive

♥******(¨`•.•´¨) (¨`•.•´¨)*********☆
☆*******`•.¸(¨`•.•´¨)..•´*********-- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
♥***********`•.¸.•´***********☆

Yummy stuffs 4 coffee! Y not try?

Hmmm... 2 hearts be together, Cno kaya ang pinatamaan ng oray, eh?

That's a ginger cookies as well as the 2 boobies, oppsss... cookies w/ almond ( i baked) a saffron roll, saffron mousse w/ orange & granade apple, ginger cheese muffin & the last but not the least that make it fronseat is almond candy, made by moi!!!

Recipes:
Saffron Mousse:
2 dl whip cream
1 pkt saffron
2 eggs
1 tsp sugar
How to do:
- Just whip the cream & sugar till it's fluffy. Separately beat the eggs & saffron well. Pour the egg mix to the fluffy cream, carefully
- Pour the mousse to a serving glasses (just half a martini glass) & top w/ slice orange & granate apple. Leave at the fridge overnight for a better taste.

VOILÁ YOU HAVE A NICE MOUSSE TO serve!

GINGER CHEESE MUFFIN
This is so ez to make that even your kids can make it w/out mums assistance.

Ingredients:
2 philadelphia cheese
3 eggs
25 pcs ginger cookies
½ dl sugar
½ tsp cinnamon
75 grm melted butter

How to do:

-Crash the cookies in a mortel fine then mix the melted butter well. Pour in a pan & pre-bake for 5 mins

- Mix all the dry ingredients, mix the eggs after one another and batter it well. Pour over to the pre-bake ginger crash cookies

* If you want to make a double layer, put 1 cookie in every muffin form then pour again the mix ingredients

- Bake for 20-30 mins in 150 degrees or modify the baking procedure. The heat can vary depends where we're living.

So, c´mon....try lang! Wanna have my helping hands? Just ring my bell and I'll be there.

I want to know if you'd succeed. LET ME KNOW, GUYS, OK? C YAH, ALL

Cozy WeekEND

Hello Everybody!

I enjoyed the w/end...a lil cozy at home w/ my family and thinking of someone far beyond the horizon... I was baking some christmas cookies & my specialities.

Then sunday came...friends & relatives came to celebrate the 2nd advent at home and enjoyed the music in the square and the christmas fleamarket, with lots of fun. Everything was so perfect. My crib was so cozy with all my christmas decos. I was amazed that everybody seems so comfy, hmmmm...the ambiance with full of feelings, might the reason why they felt it.

I'll share some pix at home w/ my dear ones & family happenings before christmas day comes.

Enjoy!

2:e ADVENT

Hmmm...where are the swedish go? This day is the 2nd advent sunday.
Sta is waiting for the todds to come. I guess he's just fixing the ride for the day. Wish C is here to enjoy the day w/ my families kids too. SUX
In my dinner table...i love fixing my own christmas decorations, so I have this simple group of candles surrounded by some hish hash, lol...bermuda grass, christmas ball, a flower, a ceramic angel & Lizah's rosary, to make the group more personal charisma. Glimpse side by side are my bake cookies then my plates too.

HO----HO---HO---my SM moves inside...we don't have snow yet! but HEY...i love the chilly winter. SM is here inside to accompany us. It so sober staring at him, waving his right hand w/ his hat and move!

Now 2 more weeks to come! Am not really fun of this season. Anyhow, am stressed too, to look for the kids presents. U old people (he he) UR not counted in my list this year or maybe next year. My pocket is OUT OF ORDER.

Sta. Claus said, TILL NEXT YR! §:-))

1st Sunday Advent

Sorry if i didn't hanged on! Well, this is the light for the season!

Dec. 2 was the first sunday of advent. In Sweden, having this advent candle settings is very popular tradition. In every candle lightened is means Christmas Day countdown. LOL*

I made my own settings. It's more nice and very natural me. I love glitters and much sophisticated. This year, i choose silver, white & green. White means for me PEACE, silver TRANQUILITY & green is FRUITFUL...these are the 3 keywords in my coming 2008.

See you nxt candle lighted!

I can smell Christmas is so close!

2 more weeks we'll celebrate our Christ birth. As christians, we have some ways celebrating this season.

In the Philippines, it was funny when December months comes. Families will change their 10pesos to small denominations, cause lots of kids do carolling.

Yeah! from the starts feels cool...but then, the next evening, same kids come back & sing the same christmas song just to have some more coins.

Hmmmm...am one of them! but hey! during my time, when we go carolling, we really do our best shot. We practiced the songs properly and even had some dances.

Am not sure nowadays, nothing we're serious anymore. During my time, doing carolling, you must have a permit from our municipality. Seems that kids abuse the spirit of the serenity, eh?

I was annoyed at the end cause hard to bare all the songs and sings unproperly. I even shouted out that "NO ONE'S HOME"...

Share your funny Christmas carol story!

Reply to my post bout "LIFE SUX"

Hmmmm... an everlasting lad somewhere in my country told me that "HANG ON"!!!

Tough but life is merry... read this:

"THE UNBROKEN SILENCE IS NOW HEARD DIRECT FROM THE HEART...
THE LONGER YOU KEEP IT, THE PAINFUL IT IS...AND WITHOUT YOU KNOWING YOU ARE LOSING YOUR SELF-ESTEEM...IF A CERTAIN RELATIONSHIP IS NOT BUILDING US AS A PERSON, BETTER LET GO...IT IS NEVER MEANT FOR US BECAUSE IF IT IS...IT'S SUPPOSED TO GIVE US PEACE OF MIND AND HEART...LIFE IS A MEDLEY OF JOY AND SORROW...WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO SHIFT SMOOTHLY AND STILL BE AT TUNED...AND WE CAN HEAR THE BEST MELODY WE CAN EVER IMAGINE...LIFE IS STILL BEAUTIFUL MY FRIEND...KEEP HOLDING ON......LOVE YOU DEAR".

She might be right or wrong, but i actually realized, somehow that Life isn't sux... it might be ME who sux... No worries! am still hanging on, for the sake of everybody who loves me so dearly.
You...you...you...& many of YOU.

Thanks for all your support in spirit...IHD no matter what!

Nice 2ts from someone in my list

No matter how small we are or what color we might be;
Like a small candle, we all can produce the same light.
Spread light with your thoughts, words and actions.
It’s a dark world… and you are here to create light.

LIFE sux??? WHY NOT READ & TRY?

But here's some way to think more positive than just mumbling all the negative thoughts we have:

1) Look on the inside & try to focus positive things in your life

2) Prove those negative thoughts wrong. Think Mother Nature, she will be there for you.

3) Now for the outside. Hard to think, but hey! just feel your beautiful things about yourself. Find stuff that appeals to you.

4) Determine why your life sucks. What things make better. Make a few goals and try to find ways to get there. The first step is the hardest, getting help or admitting you need it.

5) Goal & motivation. I know it's hard to fullfill but keep thinking of those energy who gives you motivated.

6) Remember that this is only one part of your entire life. There will be a tomorrow. There will be a next week. There will be a next month and maybe by then, you'll be feeling better.

***You are in control of your life and though it might get worse, it'll get better eventually.

TIPS!!!

** To "go for it," simply get up and do it.
**After you think positively, your whole views change about the world and you tend to look on the other side.
** Talk to others about how you are feeling.
** If you feel something is lacking in your life, try giving back to others.
** An oft-forgotten piece of common sense... Everything you don't like about yourself is something that you can fix.
** Remember to be completely honest with yourself. The rest will follow.

BUT SEE ALWAYS UP THE BELOW:
** Don't get lost in self-pity. Remember you have the ability to change your outlook and your situation.
** Resist the urge to act out moods on those around you. Instead, write, confide in a friend, do something creative or physically active.
** If you feel persistantly sad, unmotivated, anxious, hopeless or fearful, seek professional help. You may be suffering from a mood disorder such as clinical depression.

PASSION, COMPASSION

PLS. GIVE SOMETIMES A CHANCE TO READ BELOW::::

TO ALL PEOPLE WHO'S INVOLVE TO A PROHIBITED LOVE, A FORBIDDEN GAME!

EVERYBODY'S INVOLVE IN THIS LETTER OR AN ESSAY???

HOPE IT BROADEN YOUR MIND, AT LEAST!
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The outburst of emotions was like lightning and thunder that even a small child could understand, so intense and fierce that assertions, hasty it may seem, were readied. There's so many changes in our lives could never be understood for so short a time. It's beyond compression, kind of like putting a square peg into a round hole. Passions run deep and high, like wildfire burning everything along its path, it must not fail to consider the changes within each of us whether such changes could sustain its vigor and excitement.

I read all messages over and over again trying to come to terms with what you are today. The amorous disasters and the escape from scarcity are what I believe your motivations. It made you the strong but lonely person you are now maybe because you failed to appreciate all of its aspects, seeing only the side which best fit yourself. Never been in love?... you had been in love but you'd rather not call it love because the experience made you cry. To hate those men/women who in one way or another made you smile is like hating yourself, as they will always be a part of you no matter how you try to delete them from memory. If we could only format and re-format ourselves like computers! to fit other operating systems! Love is what made us, will save us and will keep us strong as we travel this space we call life. Marrying for pecuniary material reasons?

Have you see you in such a distracted situation? If I were in his/her shoes I'd do the same. It is his/her GOD given right to protect you and all those precious to him/her. He/she loves you very much and I can feel it! I could not blame him/her if he/she has entertained the idea that I am dipping my hands into his/her cookie jar. Have you ever considered the years you have been together and suddenly you act so weird and so strange? He/she doesn't deserve this. He/she needs your love. He/she needs your compassion.

All the time I wanted to see my beautiful butterfly/caterpillar in gracious flight. I don' want to lose sight of his/her as it has been for thirty years. I love my butterfly/caterpillar so much that I want to see him/her happy wherever he/she maybe. I have taken that love into another level of existence beyond the indulgence of most people. Maybe we could not grow old together in these compelling circumstances, perhaps in another lifetime...

FACE

The face can speak of a thousand emotions but it can easily mask
what the heart truly feels. Don't be fooled... for the happiest face may be
masking the most hurting heart…:-((
Tell me if it's true!