Calling?

There are two sides of me.One that everyone sees and One that I hide.But the hidden must be found. But i myself don't even know how.I smile and act carefree but inside I'm breaking down.I say I'm fine yet it's not the truth.It feels as if the world is spinning madly out of control and I'm losing it.

Everyday problems threaten my sanity.I'm scared not knowing what to do.I dont want to leave but its not my decision.I'm sitting here waiting, unable to voice what i want to say. Am i playing hide and seek with my mind? If it is a game, I want my sides to be one. I'm sick and tired of playing this game but its not my choice , being a human I have no control. But then i am still fighting to control everything. I just don't know until when.I'm screaming on the inside. I don't want to fool everybody with my smile thinking that I'm happy but I'm not.My soul is screaming and no one can hear it but me....

So yes, I may smile and yes I seem happy.But on the inside .........i'm falling apart !!!


Jst listen to the music, beh? Malipay nalang ko ani!

My wordless Friday Fingerprints

IT'S REALLY A FALSE GAME, indeed...

Love is all around YOU-My friday fingerprint

Just telling you that, life is too short if we don't share love to anybody.

Hope you share even a bit of it.

ENJOY YOUR WEEK-END...

My treat to my systah ROSE of the Wranglers 4evahs

This post today is a gift to one of my dear true friend, sister or unsa na gud ning pag-kabutanga, basta!

Your BDAY cake from your systahs, Manding, Iya & your one & only Oray. Gisingot kog bake ani ha? Tag-usa baya jud ta. The celebrant will get the biggest one & smallest one is for the cutiest of them all... waaaaaaaahhhh... ako diay to, toinks!!!

She will celebrate her ??ty five birthday tomorrow. I don't know what to give on her day, as am pretty sure that she got everything, one can dream of. Mor pa baya ni ha?

Hmmmm... mag-nostalgia ko beh? One day last year, mga March 2007, i still recall the month (suppose forgotten na kay, tigul-its na baya kow ai!).I was at home by then recovering from a surgery. I was blogging to one of those thousand sites in blogg world & one day, I saw someone wrote a comment on one of my post. Scary, i felt that time. Remember, I don't really mingle to my co-filipinos abroad. Well, it doesn't mean that am snobby or snappy or whatever but, based to my experienced, people who came from my country are hard to handle. Therefore, I prefer to be alone and silent where and with the true/honest people around me, than running around gossiping on what other have & had. That's not my way, actually. Am so satiesfied living a solemn life.

Anyways, I responded her and from that time, we became as close friend as ever. I don't know what's in our thoughts, nag-ka-vibes man noon mi kaayo oy? Grabe jud. AS IN og sa tagalog pa §:-))

Nowadays, Inse Rose, as I call her, is the one I can rely on in all my flaws & whining. She listens & giggles...pahak pod ni siya bah? Amew pa jud. But to tell the world, I do have feelings to her as my dear tinuod nga systah! Cross mah heart pa lagi? *showing my fingers cross §:-))

So, syagit ta ha? HAAPPPIIII BIG DAY, INSE!!!! wish you all the luck, the kigwas will stay w/ you or us og taas na life... Promise that, we'll reach a 100 yrs old, baya! Mag-contest tag kinsay kusog mag-padagan og rullator.You're worth to chill OUT this w/end. LAB YAH....

Mao ni siya ai! WAFFS kaau no?

A REAL RE-CYCLE

I was just in shocked this morning when I open my YM & my co-filipinos sent me a link from You Tube. I can't really believe when i watched the video.

Where are we filipino goes? Are we really in that situation? I hope millions of people who watched the video in You Tube, give their symphaty to Filipino living in the area were they practising this kind of act.

PLS CLICK HERE TO WATCH THE REALITY...

Calling our Philippine Government!!! Help the needy to get their needs, not just the riches needs...

My wordless Friday

ALWAYS TOGETHER 4EVAH!

Yeah? Am not sure why you feels it so that much? What you see in me is just a cliché, i guess. This lil lady might not what you expected. But, hopefully am telling the truth, as most of the time, I can feel that you really telling me the truth too. Hmmm... do you?

If you see my flaws, you know the reason why. J!!!

Anyways, just listen this..


Ur always there to stay! INHOBBOK, GHAZIZ

After a YEAR...another number added to my age!

Hmmm...I forgot how many years since I celebrated my birthday. This year was one of the biggest and the funniest, inspite the wetty weather.

Anyway, my guests are the only people close to my heart and I just hope that everybody enjoyed the palatable dishes me & my wrangler ladies in heart prepared for the dinner.
Now, I feel a year older! §:-))
These are the ladies that I met somewhere over the rainbow and I was surprised that our relationship is thicker than any other relationship. LAPOT pas dinuguan no?
LAB YAH systahs,

This is another lady who I care lots since we met for almost a decade now. A real systah, lupig pa ang tinuod na systah sa Pinas...

THANK YOU SO MUCH MY TRUE FRIENDS. HOPE THIS FRIENDSHIP WILL LAST FOREVAH...

2geder 4ever

Yes... but do this really happens? How long? Do you think both of us can wait that long to fullfill the unreachable dreams?

Hmmmm... so many questions but so little answers. Just hoping you're there to stay. Or else waiting for you in HEAVEN...



Thank you for being so in love (if that's true) BS? probably yes, eh? Anyways, you know where to find me and likewise.

A wordless & sentimental Day!!!

YES! indeed...

Life Process

I was thinking many times what was my life experience or my life process??? Hard to believe but in every life we have a process from the day we bornt.
Guess, am going a lil deep in thoughts but this is really a serious subject, specially to parents outthere. Here's my whimpering words that maybe an eye opener or maybe to be laugh at to others.
"The theories and concepts contained within the the process of this life experience reverb in memories of my own childhood development. In junior high school, most of my closest friends were boys. I often found girls to be competitive, while boys let me engage in activities without having to worry about who liked who the most or who was the most popular. However, because of this I was often subjected to teasing because of preferring to hang out with boys more than girls.In a sense, the two sexes are raised in distinctive cultures,Do you agree w/ this? Well, I do, due to my own experience. While I tended to resist these categories or different cultures naturally while a young girl, I found that doing so often made me the subject of ridicule from others. Girls were often fond of teasing me, calling me names like, tomboy or even a hoare because I enjoyed playing games with boys like kickball and tag.
My own family members were often guilty of encouraging such distinctions. My mother used to tell me that girls should play with girls, and my father would say that others would talk about me if I did not act more like a girl should act. Girls and boys are bombarded with messages about sex roles from birth. While I could often discuss this issue with my mother in an open manner, my father refused to think I had any right to continue the behavior. Is this a valid discussion, how parents and educators often add to the environment or culture that promotes teasing and bullying of children based on roles of sex and gender?"Can someone tell me, if am right or wrong? This subjsect just came across my mine when I was sitting in a train, recalling my past. Sometimes, it hurts & sometimes makes me proud because I came too far that I never dreamt about.

Am still around!

Whoever pass & read this blogsite & wonder "what happen to the owner?", well! this site is still very ACTIVE but sad to say that the owner is out of time to update her posts. Am still around and promised, as soon I settle my health, my house & my love life, will be back in here, again...

As of now, I lost my strength! LOVE plays so hard in my life right now and am feeling so "UNFAITHFUL"

BEAR w/ me...

AM BACK TO CELEBRATE THE SWEDISH MID-SUMMER

Am back from my long recovery & of course the premier summer vacation.

I don't have a lot to share but as summer comes a long our way, I have a nice words to all who are in love.

Sweden celebrates it's Mid-summer holiday, so ladies who wants to meet your man of your life, it says that you have
to pick 7 different kinds of flowers and put under your pillow. On Mid-summer evening that lucky guy will come across your path.

The start of summer holidays
Swedes are fairly well attuned to the rhythms of nature. At Midsummer, many begin their five-week annual holidays and they, too, are in a hurry to get things done. Midsummer Eve is celebrated in the countryside – as always – and on the day before, everyone leaves town, everything closes and the streets are suddenly spookily deserted.

The country’s main thoroughfares, on the other hand, are packed. Queues of cars stretch away into the distance, and at the end of the road, family and friends wait among silver birches in full, shimmering bloom.

Good LUCK... Nice words to you who are IN LOVE

Anything's possible, if we believe that our love is true, that it's me and U
Distance between us, brings a disbelieve. What am I to do when I can't have U?
As I hear your voice over the telephone, so far away but also close to me. How this turned it out, Lang? Knowin´ U blinded me and my reality! Can't restrain my love & I wanna be close to U. Closer so I can feel every breath U take, but Ur out of reach to my heart coz Ur a thousand miles away.
I don't wanna lose U, I don't wanna use U go, just to have somebody by my side. And I don't wanna hate U and I don't wanna take U??? but I don't wanna be the one to cry and it don't really matter anymore if I'm like a fool... Coz i keep losing U in my place and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
Did U know there's a danger in loving somebody too much? And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are? sometimes the word LOVE just ain't enough

GRAY'S ANATOMY..FOR REAL!!!

My hand were the drops stuck it in! waaahhhh---

That's right! I was hospitalized the other day and just got home. I undergo a surgery that I can't explain in here every details. As of now am recovering at home and will stay at home till Mid-june.
All meds and the sick leave papers...

This will be a kinda boring recovery. I have a constant pain but, this is how it is! Soon, it I will be in my feet again...So, if ever you didn't hear from me, am just here around chilling out & doing lots of reading w/ my fav mags.
Am wallowing in my interior design mags:

Hope you're hang around, guys! I'll be back soonest! Will miss YOU all...

After 4 years, still together

Yeah! am back to my normal life just after my short R&R to NYC. Now, Work-home & vice versa. House chores & being a mother, I am a supporter to a teen-age daughter too. In short, a stressy mum...at work!

I still remember I started to surf in the cyber space. It was exactly 4 years ago. Well, I do use computers but only for my work. No more, no less.

Suddenly, a co-filipina who loves to wander in cyber space taught me how to surf, chat and all tips how to use internet for private use. §:-))

Anyway, here's the story. I started to know a nice bloke from downunder *wink and our relation became too close. It's surprises me coz he didn't get bored meeting me late at nights or early afternoons. It's cool though. We have some ups & downs too *fniss

I never thought that this world of internet make my life easier. Gave me more importance and somebody in the other side of the world is much appreciated what I have. He got the requirements I needed, is he? Hmmmm...anyways, no matter what it's been 4 years now! CRAZY me!

Thank you for being there for me, listens to my flaws and all tissles & tassles in life. You're spicing my life and make me happy although the distance. Am still hoping that someday those dreams will come true and we both have to hold on.


GHAZIZ FOR YOU...IHD

Two people living on the edge of life
Are people running out of dreams and time
I can hear it when you tell me so
I can feel it but I can't let go

Two people gotta stick together
And love one another, save it for a rainy day
Some people gotta stay whatever
And give one another shelter on a rainy day

Two people living in the way we do
Are people trying to keep a love anew
What to say to make some sense of it
What to do to make the feeling fit

Two people gotta stick together
And love one another, save it for a rainy day
Some people gotta stay whatever
And give one another shelter on a rainy day

I'll come running to your rescue
You gotta stand by me
There's a lot of love between us
We should never let go

Am still In NYC having an R&R

As promised, I supposed to post as soon as I have time. But am on my R&R in the Big Apple, NYC.

So far, so good! Me & my daughter are glad to found the stuffs we wanted to have. Unfortunately, not the stuffs for my house.

Here are some of the pictures we toke a
round Manhattan.

A Perfect Summer Day Menu!!!

I apologize that I wasn't active these past few weeks. I have so many reasons that sometimes can't explain to everybody. Anyways, am here again and hopefully I can update my post as often as I did before.
Below is my tips how to have a perfect summer...
Some ingredients & spices of life makes your day perfect! So enjoy every minute guys! Take care of yourself and your loveones. Chill out!
Ingredients

3m of fresh cut grass
100g of sun
100ml of fresh water
Pinch of sand
200g of blue sky
A splash of a BBQ

5 cup fulls of clouds
5g of sun tan lotion

Method:


Begin with 50g of clouds as fluffy as a sheep’s coat.
Then add 500g of sky as blue as a tropical islands ocean.
Add 100ml of fresh water glistening in the sun.
Then add a pinch of sand which is as warm as toast.
After that add 100g of sun scorching in the summers day.
Add 3m of freshly cut grass which has just come out the mower.
After that add a splash of a BBQ which is sizzling in the garden.

Finally add 5g of sweet smelling sun tan lotion

Walpurgis Night!!!

Wind is chilly, sun shines & people wear a smile in their faces... so nice. The night of April 30 is the year’s other halloween.

Other European countries call this as other hallowen. Witches, moonlight, chilly night, bonfire, superstitions & festivities, spell & magic. Well, it is a WALPURGIS NIGHT! This is like halloween though and has it's root from an ancient days.

"Scandinavians participated in a ritual that they hoped would hasten the arrival of spring weather and ensure fertility for their crops and livestock. They would light huge bonfires in hopes of scaring away evil spirits".

Well, nowadays, we're talking PARTY! lots of alcohol. Drink till you drop!

ENJOY UR EVENING TOMORROW GUYS!!! & HOPE NOT TOO MUCH ALCOHOL INTAKE.

Spring Cleaning is on the GO!!!

May bustles in on windy feet
And sweeps my doorstep and my street.
I washes and cleans with pounding rains,
Scrubbing the earth of winter stains.
I shakes the grime from carpet green
Till naught but fresh new blades are seen.
Then, house in order, all neat as a pin,
I do ushers gentle springtime in.

Fallin IN LOVE w/right reason for the right person!

It's hard for two people to love each other when
they live in two different worlds....but when these
two different worlds collide and become one...that's
what you call MAGIC! In life, there are many roads
and there is one known as LOVE ! When you
come to the end of the road, you have found true love.
Maybe HE wants us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one so that when we finally
meet the right person, we should know how to be
grateful for the gift.


In life, we don't know how
many love the LORD will send us, but we do know
that one day He'll send the right one. In God's
time, you'll fall in love for the right reasons, to the
right person. When that time comes, that love will
be worth the wait, the tears and the pain, then
you'll forget you ever cried. In life we don't need
someone who will love us so much and will give the
world to us, instead we need someone who's going
to be there and will never leave no matter what !!!
And i am so blessed to fall in love with the right
person for the right reasons

THANK YOU LANG FOR BEING THERE FOR ME, HOPEFULLY FOREVER!!!

QUOTE FOR THE DAY/WEEK

It's been awhile I wrote some new post in my blog. I am just too weak to do the updates of my blogs nowadays. The reason is that my pneumonia is back again.

I was ill the whole 3 weeks in March and feel better just in 2 weeks and now I feel sick again. My coughing turned into pneumonia. Anti-bios and all those meds don't work either. So tired! More doc visits next week. Hope they find viruses but they unfortunately, don't find nothing in the results.

Spring sickness? Pollen allergy, hay fever? That's a few questions to be answered. Anyway, I just want to leave some lines for you this week-end!

This is some words of wisdom for you to recall what's bothering you inside:
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"When we are angry or depressed in our creativity, we have misplaced our power. We have allowed someone else to deter mine our worth, and then we are angry at being undervalued"

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These lines below is for U, if ever u follow my footprints in here!!!

I know I'll always feel close to you
even when we're far apart
There's so much love, that binds us together
so many memories of good times
And long talks shared, and a very special understanding
that's really rare.

I'm glad that we're so close in heart
and I'm glad too
That neither time nor distance will ever change
the very special bond we share.

Yes, indeed! true! but U have to take care of those feelings. Heart needs care too.

Pls. listen this song... I guess time for us to move on? If you forget I exist. Remember, I am like a flower, if you don't water & take care of me...then I'll die & fade away. Suddenly, you realised, but maybe it's too late to save me by then.

April-May a Spring Months? but where are YOU?

I WAS FRUSTRARED W/ THE SPRING TIME. IT SEEMS IT WON'T COME THIS YEAR, THEREFORE I DECIDED TO PUT ALL NICE WORDS OF WISDOM TOGETHER FROM MY FAV AUTHORS!!! TO EASE MY SORROWS, MY LONELINESS, LONGING TO SOMEONE SPECIAL!

The sun was warm but the wind was chill.
You know how it is with an April day
When the sun is out and the wind is still,
You're one month on in the middle of May.
But if you so much as dare to speak,
A cloud comes over the sunlit arch,
A wind comes off a frozen peak,
And you're two months back in the middle of March.
Oh! how this spring of love resemble
The uncertain glory of an April day!
April is the cruelest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.

The first day of spring is one thing, and the first spring day is another.
The difference between them is sometimes as great as a month.

TIME FLIES SO FAST! AFTER 19 YRS...

It's just like yesterday. Time really flies so fast. Imagine? I can't believe that am married for 19 years? Amazingly, I AM!!! Tangengot ang loka.

After all this years, nag-mamahalan pa rin. Ika nga. In a relationship both must respect to each other and always give way or give some space and privacy to each other.
Ano ba jan? Hard to explain. Many people around us, wonder what is my spice that we still together. I said, RESPECT, PRIVACY, TRUST & UNDERSTANDING, simple as that.

THANKS LARS FOR BEING MY MAN, MY FRIEND AND MY GUARDIAN. Thanks for your understanding that many don't understand how you tackle. Hope we'll both grow old together. Looking forward for more years to come.

BLACK EYED PEAS-BEBOT (chix)

One of the member in this group is half filipino & half afro american.

Check his "Bebot"... ENJOY WATCHING & still PROUD to be one of them!

"EARTH HOUR" SUCCESS OR NOT?

As I followed the Earth Hour yesterday, I want to share some pictures.
What do you think? was it a success or NOT? AT least, millions of people joined the world venture. Excited, right? Think if we do this every now & then not just once a year? DO you think we can save energy? Or at least, we started?

As many as 30 million people are tipped to switch off lights and televisions around the world to help fight climate change with around 370 towns and cities in more than 35 countries taking part in the event.

Below are some pictures to see!!!
Swedis Royal Castle B4 & AFTER

Parts of the city will be shrouded in darkness on Saturday, March 29. Dubai has become the first city in the Arab world to join Earth Hour.


Sydney!!!




South Melbourne:


Philippines by DARKNESS

Diner's eat outdoors

EARTH HOUR!!!

“Earth Hour” has been deemed to be 7:30pm. Everyone in Sydney has been encouraged to turn out their lights for an hour between half past seven and half past eight, March 31, 2007.

The idea behind the “Earth Hour” is that people will think about their energy consumption and attempt to be more thoughtful when considering this.
“Eath Hour” in Sydney brings a few questions not only on my mind but to millions too, which am hoping to be able to answer later.

Sydney by night before the lights OUT for an hour:

After a year, big cities in the world decided to celebrate the EARTH HOUR again, tomorrow 29/3-08 between 20hrs-21hrs. But in my amazement Stockholm isn't included in this world venue, helping to preserve world's energy.

One politican was asked by a journalist, reckoned " If we shut OUT energy for an hour, the city of Stockholm will be in chaos". No electricity means no trains working. But hey! for an hour? and for our environment sake? Can't Stockholm people manage this? If those HUGE cities in the world w/ it's million of inhabitants can survive the EARTH HOUR, why can't we?
SYDNEY BY NIGHT FOR AN HOUR


That's life FOLKS... we who live in Stockholm survive the delayed trains almost everyday, why can't we just suffer & pass an hour...but to all concern, I will turn OFF my lights for an hour tomorrow though,for the honour of ENVIRONMENT....FOR OUR FUTURE....

Be PROUD who lives in this cities given below:
1) San Francisco
2) Chicago
3) Sydney
4) Atlanta
5) Phoenix
6) Bangkok
7) Manila
8) Toronto
9) Dublin
10) Melbourne
11) Tel Aviv
12) Ottawa
13) Christchurch
14) Brisbane
15) Adelaide
16) Perth
17) Canberra
18) Köpenhamn
19) Ålborg
20) Århus
21) Odense
22) Suva
23) Lautoka

I can see that PHILIPPINES will use this kind of lightning: BE PROUD TO BE A PINOY!

What you think my dear readers? Are you one of those who care's or NOT!!! DECIDE*

BIG or LITTLE... BROKEN TRUST or BROKEN PROMISES

FOR BETTER OR FOR WORST!

Before any trust can rebuild you must address how and or why it was broken in the first place. This is the time for brutal honesty. A complete confessional of how the trust was broken should only be done when you are both ready to hear it. Anyway there will be a massive amount of stress on relationship once the trust has been broken by lies or breaking promises.

Being lied to by someone you love and felt you could trust is very painful and frustrating. You love your partner, so you find yourself forgiving his/her lies the first time, perhaps the second and third time as well, before you realized you are just involved with a liar. However, because you feel strongly for this person, it is not easy for you to break away, even though you know that is probably what is best for you. You hang on, with hope that things will change and he will not lie to you anymore. You justify staying with him by telling yourself that he is a good person and deep down you know he loves you and that your relationship is wonderful and perfect except when he lies.
THEY'RE STILL TOGETHER FOR A COUPLE OF DECADES (she got secret but not lies, or ain't it?) BUANG JUD KO NO?

What you need to ask yourself when this happens is: Do you consider a wonderful relationship in which your partner lies to you? Is being lied to by a liar your idea of love and respect? When you are emotionally involved with someone, it is not always easy to ask and answer these logical questions. You often will make excuses for a liar, just to make yourself feel better about staying with someone who does not truly respect you. When your partner lies to you, it is because he does not respect you and is not as committed to the relationship as you would like to believe. Of course, there are different kinds of lies- little ones and big ones, but a lie is still a lie, no matter the size or reason for the lie. Look at it like this: if your partner can lie so easily over little things that are unnecessary to lie about, then you can be pretty sure that he/she will lie to you about bigger things that will really matter and damage the relationship.

I guess everyone makes mistake. Just learn how to fix it, also how u going to face the problem. Does he meant to do it or not?! I just consider...
Forgive is good ideal, for both side! Get back or not just another question.
THIS WAS THE 3rd TIMES AROUND FOR BONDING THEIR LIVES ETERNITY (lies lay beyond)

FORGIVE, FORGIVE & FORGET as long as there is still love.... as long as there is the tiniest bit of feeling left. There is enough to rebuild from the ground up, and to form a solid relationship with each other. The biggest portion of love is deep within the heart and will take a very long time to surface to let go.

Do you agree GUYS? Help me w/ some thoughts regarding the post...

FORGIVE EVERYBODY THIS COMING EASTER

GUYS!!!

Thanks a million that you're here w/ me and keep me alive. Another year, another Easter!

Keep your heart open for penance and be sure that everybody forgive everybody, whatever those grudges we had.

This is the 4th Easter am w/ U...and still am glad ur here w/ me. If your're invisible then give me more INVISIBLE EGGS!!!

Ha ha...thanks for being there for me and ALWAYS.

HAPPY EASTER!

BOOK LAUNCH/RELEASE PARTY

Yesterday, we were invited to a release party. It was amazing coz lots of people came to see & eager to buy her book!

Yes, she is Eva Dozzi an SVT profile/tv anchor, now an author. Isn't that amazing? It happens that we know her hubby Lars.

Her book is about "John Lenon". "Jävla John" in swedish or "Bloody John" in direct english *lol

Amazingly, we ended at the Scandic Continental Hotel, located right in the heart the city.

Do you know the reason why she held her launched party in this hotel? Well, "The Beatles" stayed in this hotel, when they visited Stockholm in year 1963. It's just like yesterday.
After mingle moments, we went down to the hotel bar and the live band waited us there. They played of course, Beattles songs!

Below are some interesting pictures: unfortunately, the staffs don't know in w/c of these rooms John Lenon checked IN, therefore we got these 2 rooms to mingle in... Room 205 & 206 "I just can't imagine he spew in one of the toilets ---in there"!!!

Me & Liz at Room 206>>