Calling?

There are two sides of me.One that everyone sees and One that I hide.But the hidden must be found. But i myself don't even know how.I smile and act carefree but inside I'm breaking down.I say I'm fine yet it's not the truth.It feels as if the world is spinning madly out of control and I'm losing it.

Everyday problems threaten my sanity.I'm scared not knowing what to do.I dont want to leave but its not my decision.I'm sitting here waiting, unable to voice what i want to say. Am i playing hide and seek with my mind? If it is a game, I want my sides to be one. I'm sick and tired of playing this game but its not my choice , being a human I have no control. But then i am still fighting to control everything. I just don't know until when.I'm screaming on the inside. I don't want to fool everybody with my smile thinking that I'm happy but I'm not.My soul is screaming and no one can hear it but me....

So yes, I may smile and yes I seem happy.But on the inside .........i'm falling apart !!!


Jst listen to the music, beh? Malipay nalang ko ani!

My wordless Friday Fingerprints

IT'S REALLY A FALSE GAME, indeed...

Love is all around YOU-My friday fingerprint

Just telling you that, life is too short if we don't share love to anybody.

Hope you share even a bit of it.

ENJOY YOUR WEEK-END...

My treat to my systah ROSE of the Wranglers 4evahs

This post today is a gift to one of my dear true friend, sister or unsa na gud ning pag-kabutanga, basta!

Your BDAY cake from your systahs, Manding, Iya & your one & only Oray. Gisingot kog bake ani ha? Tag-usa baya jud ta. The celebrant will get the biggest one & smallest one is for the cutiest of them all... waaaaaaaahhhh... ako diay to, toinks!!!

She will celebrate her ??ty five birthday tomorrow. I don't know what to give on her day, as am pretty sure that she got everything, one can dream of. Mor pa baya ni ha?

Hmmmm... mag-nostalgia ko beh? One day last year, mga March 2007, i still recall the month (suppose forgotten na kay, tigul-its na baya kow ai!).I was at home by then recovering from a surgery. I was blogging to one of those thousand sites in blogg world & one day, I saw someone wrote a comment on one of my post. Scary, i felt that time. Remember, I don't really mingle to my co-filipinos abroad. Well, it doesn't mean that am snobby or snappy or whatever but, based to my experienced, people who came from my country are hard to handle. Therefore, I prefer to be alone and silent where and with the true/honest people around me, than running around gossiping on what other have & had. That's not my way, actually. Am so satiesfied living a solemn life.

Anyways, I responded her and from that time, we became as close friend as ever. I don't know what's in our thoughts, nag-ka-vibes man noon mi kaayo oy? Grabe jud. AS IN og sa tagalog pa §:-))

Nowadays, Inse Rose, as I call her, is the one I can rely on in all my flaws & whining. She listens & giggles...pahak pod ni siya bah? Amew pa jud. But to tell the world, I do have feelings to her as my dear tinuod nga systah! Cross mah heart pa lagi? *showing my fingers cross §:-))

So, syagit ta ha? HAAPPPIIII BIG DAY, INSE!!!! wish you all the luck, the kigwas will stay w/ you or us og taas na life... Promise that, we'll reach a 100 yrs old, baya! Mag-contest tag kinsay kusog mag-padagan og rullator.You're worth to chill OUT this w/end. LAB YAH....

Mao ni siya ai! WAFFS kaau no?

A REAL RE-CYCLE

I was just in shocked this morning when I open my YM & my co-filipinos sent me a link from You Tube. I can't really believe when i watched the video.

Where are we filipino goes? Are we really in that situation? I hope millions of people who watched the video in You Tube, give their symphaty to Filipino living in the area were they practising this kind of act.

PLS CLICK HERE TO WATCH THE REALITY...

Calling our Philippine Government!!! Help the needy to get their needs, not just the riches needs...

My wordless Friday

ALWAYS TOGETHER 4EVAH!

Yeah? Am not sure why you feels it so that much? What you see in me is just a cliché, i guess. This lil lady might not what you expected. But, hopefully am telling the truth, as most of the time, I can feel that you really telling me the truth too. Hmmm... do you?

If you see my flaws, you know the reason why. J!!!

Anyways, just listen this..


Ur always there to stay! INHOBBOK, GHAZIZ

After a YEAR...another number added to my age!

Hmmm...I forgot how many years since I celebrated my birthday. This year was one of the biggest and the funniest, inspite the wetty weather.

Anyway, my guests are the only people close to my heart and I just hope that everybody enjoyed the palatable dishes me & my wrangler ladies in heart prepared for the dinner.
Now, I feel a year older! §:-))
These are the ladies that I met somewhere over the rainbow and I was surprised that our relationship is thicker than any other relationship. LAPOT pas dinuguan no?
LAB YAH systahs,

This is another lady who I care lots since we met for almost a decade now. A real systah, lupig pa ang tinuod na systah sa Pinas...

THANK YOU SO MUCH MY TRUE FRIENDS. HOPE THIS FRIENDSHIP WILL LAST FOREVAH...

2geder 4ever

Yes... but do this really happens? How long? Do you think both of us can wait that long to fullfill the unreachable dreams?

Hmmmm... so many questions but so little answers. Just hoping you're there to stay. Or else waiting for you in HEAVEN...



Thank you for being so in love (if that's true) BS? probably yes, eh? Anyways, you know where to find me and likewise.

A wordless & sentimental Day!!!

YES! indeed...

Life Process

I was thinking many times what was my life experience or my life process??? Hard to believe but in every life we have a process from the day we bornt.
Guess, am going a lil deep in thoughts but this is really a serious subject, specially to parents outthere. Here's my whimpering words that maybe an eye opener or maybe to be laugh at to others.
"The theories and concepts contained within the the process of this life experience reverb in memories of my own childhood development. In junior high school, most of my closest friends were boys. I often found girls to be competitive, while boys let me engage in activities without having to worry about who liked who the most or who was the most popular. However, because of this I was often subjected to teasing because of preferring to hang out with boys more than girls.In a sense, the two sexes are raised in distinctive cultures,Do you agree w/ this? Well, I do, due to my own experience. While I tended to resist these categories or different cultures naturally while a young girl, I found that doing so often made me the subject of ridicule from others. Girls were often fond of teasing me, calling me names like, tomboy or even a hoare because I enjoyed playing games with boys like kickball and tag.
My own family members were often guilty of encouraging such distinctions. My mother used to tell me that girls should play with girls, and my father would say that others would talk about me if I did not act more like a girl should act. Girls and boys are bombarded with messages about sex roles from birth. While I could often discuss this issue with my mother in an open manner, my father refused to think I had any right to continue the behavior. Is this a valid discussion, how parents and educators often add to the environment or culture that promotes teasing and bullying of children based on roles of sex and gender?"Can someone tell me, if am right or wrong? This subjsect just came across my mine when I was sitting in a train, recalling my past. Sometimes, it hurts & sometimes makes me proud because I came too far that I never dreamt about.

Am still around!

Whoever pass & read this blogsite & wonder "what happen to the owner?", well! this site is still very ACTIVE but sad to say that the owner is out of time to update her posts. Am still around and promised, as soon I settle my health, my house & my love life, will be back in here, again...

As of now, I lost my strength! LOVE plays so hard in my life right now and am feeling so "UNFAITHFUL"

BEAR w/ me...

AM BACK TO CELEBRATE THE SWEDISH MID-SUMMER

Am back from my long recovery & of course the premier summer vacation.

I don't have a lot to share but as summer comes a long our way, I have a nice words to all who are in love.

Sweden celebrates it's Mid-summer holiday, so ladies who wants to meet your man of your life, it says that you have
to pick 7 different kinds of flowers and put under your pillow. On Mid-summer evening that lucky guy will come across your path.

The start of summer holidays
Swedes are fairly well attuned to the rhythms of nature. At Midsummer, many begin their five-week annual holidays and they, too, are in a hurry to get things done. Midsummer Eve is celebrated in the countryside – as always – and on the day before, everyone leaves town, everything closes and the streets are suddenly spookily deserted.

The country’s main thoroughfares, on the other hand, are packed. Queues of cars stretch away into the distance, and at the end of the road, family and friends wait among silver birches in full, shimmering bloom.

Good LUCK... Nice words to you who are IN LOVE

Anything's possible, if we believe that our love is true, that it's me and U
Distance between us, brings a disbelieve. What am I to do when I can't have U?
As I hear your voice over the telephone, so far away but also close to me. How this turned it out, Lang? Knowin´ U blinded me and my reality! Can't restrain my love & I wanna be close to U. Closer so I can feel every breath U take, but Ur out of reach to my heart coz Ur a thousand miles away.
I don't wanna lose U, I don't wanna use U go, just to have somebody by my side. And I don't wanna hate U and I don't wanna take U??? but I don't wanna be the one to cry and it don't really matter anymore if I'm like a fool... Coz i keep losing U in my place and I keep seeing you walk through that door.
Did U know there's a danger in loving somebody too much? And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are? sometimes the word LOVE just ain't enough

GRAY'S ANATOMY..FOR REAL!!!

My hand were the drops stuck it in! waaahhhh---

That's right! I was hospitalized the other day and just got home. I undergo a surgery that I can't explain in here every details. As of now am recovering at home and will stay at home till Mid-june.
All meds and the sick leave papers...

This will be a kinda boring recovery. I have a constant pain but, this is how it is! Soon, it I will be in my feet again...So, if ever you didn't hear from me, am just here around chilling out & doing lots of reading w/ my fav mags.
Am wallowing in my interior design mags:

Hope you're hang around, guys! I'll be back soonest! Will miss YOU all...

After 4 years, still together

Yeah! am back to my normal life just after my short R&R to NYC. Now, Work-home & vice versa. House chores & being a mother, I am a supporter to a teen-age daughter too. In short, a stressy mum...at work!

I still remember I started to surf in the cyber space. It was exactly 4 years ago. Well, I do use computers but only for my work. No more, no less.

Suddenly, a co-filipina who loves to wander in cyber space taught me how to surf, chat and all tips how to use internet for private use. §:-))

Anyway, here's the story. I started to know a nice bloke from downunder *wink and our relation became too close. It's surprises me coz he didn't get bored meeting me late at nights or early afternoons. It's cool though. We have some ups & downs too *fniss

I never thought that this world of internet make my life easier. Gave me more importance and somebody in the other side of the world is much appreciated what I have. He got the requirements I needed, is he? Hmmmm...anyways, no matter what it's been 4 years now! CRAZY me!

Thank you for being there for me, listens to my flaws and all tissles & tassles in life. You're spicing my life and make me happy although the distance. Am still hoping that someday those dreams will come true and we both have to hold on.


GHAZIZ FOR YOU...IHD

Two people living on the edge of life
Are people running out of dreams and time
I can hear it when you tell me so
I can feel it but I can't let go

Two people gotta stick together
And love one another, save it for a rainy day
Some people gotta stay whatever
And give one another shelter on a rainy day

Two people living in the way we do
Are people trying to keep a love anew
What to say to make some sense of it
What to do to make the feeling fit

Two people gotta stick together
And love one another, save it for a rainy day
Some people gotta stay whatever
And give one another shelter on a rainy day

I'll come running to your rescue
You gotta stand by me
There's a lot of love between us
We should never let go

Am still In NYC having an R&R

As promised, I supposed to post as soon as I have time. But am on my R&R in the Big Apple, NYC.

So far, so good! Me & my daughter are glad to found the stuffs we wanted to have. Unfortunately, not the stuffs for my house.

Here are some of the pictures we toke a
round Manhattan.

A Perfect Summer Day Menu!!!

I apologize that I wasn't active these past few weeks. I have so many reasons that sometimes can't explain to everybody. Anyways, am here again and hopefully I can update my post as often as I did before.
Below is my tips how to have a perfect summer...
Some ingredients & spices of life makes your day perfect! So enjoy every minute guys! Take care of yourself and your loveones. Chill out!
Ingredients

3m of fresh cut grass
100g of sun
100ml of fresh water
Pinch of sand
200g of blue sky
A splash of a BBQ

5 cup fulls of clouds
5g of sun tan lotion

Method:


Begin with 50g of clouds as fluffy as a sheep’s coat.
Then add 500g of sky as blue as a tropical islands ocean.
Add 100ml of fresh water glistening in the sun.
Then add a pinch of sand which is as warm as toast.
After that add 100g of sun scorching in the summers day.
Add 3m of freshly cut grass which has just come out the mower.
After that add a splash of a BBQ which is sizzling in the garden.

Finally add 5g of sweet smelling sun tan lotion

Walpurgis Night!!!

Wind is chilly, sun shines & people wear a smile in their faces... so nice. The night of April 30 is the year’s other halloween.

Other European countries call this as other hallowen. Witches, moonlight, chilly night, bonfire, superstitions & festivities, spell & magic. Well, it is a WALPURGIS NIGHT! This is like halloween though and has it's root from an ancient days.

"Scandinavians participated in a ritual that they hoped would hasten the arrival of spring weather and ensure fertility for their crops and livestock. They would light huge bonfires in hopes of scaring away evil spirits".

Well, nowadays, we're talking PARTY! lots of alcohol. Drink till you drop!

ENJOY UR EVENING TOMORROW GUYS!!! & HOPE NOT TOO MUCH ALCOHOL INTAKE.

Spring Cleaning is on the GO!!!

May bustles in on windy feet
And sweeps my doorstep and my street.
I washes and cleans with pounding rains,
Scrubbing the earth of winter stains.
I shakes the grime from carpet green
Till naught but fresh new blades are seen.
Then, house in order, all neat as a pin,
I do ushers gentle springtime in.

Fallin IN LOVE w/right reason for the right person!

It's hard for two people to love each other when
they live in two different worlds....but when these
two different worlds collide and become one...that's
what you call MAGIC! In life, there are many roads
and there is one known as LOVE ! When you
come to the end of the road, you have found true love.
Maybe HE wants us to meet a few wrong people
before meeting the right one so that when we finally
meet the right person, we should know how to be
grateful for the gift.


In life, we don't know how
many love the LORD will send us, but we do know
that one day He'll send the right one. In God's
time, you'll fall in love for the right reasons, to the
right person. When that time comes, that love will
be worth the wait, the tears and the pain, then
you'll forget you ever cried. In life we don't need
someone who will love us so much and will give the
world to us, instead we need someone who's going
to be there and will never leave no matter what !!!
And i am so blessed to fall in love with the right
person for the right reasons

THANK YOU LANG FOR BEING THERE FOR ME, HOPEFULLY FOREVER!!!